Pudding....how I hate thee...

Allow me to explain.

So I am on a new diet and exercise regimen that Master has set up for me...well not thinking about it last night after dinner, I grab a pudding and sit on the couch across from him...

I know a look from him but it didn't click until about three spoonfuls in....

THAT FUCKING PUDDING!

After dinner, I was told he was disappointed (Worst thing ever to hear from Master) and if I wanted to put things in my mouth he had something for me....


That pudding led to one of the longest dick sucking segments ever!

Needless to say before I have eaten anything today I had made sure to message Master..

I doubt I ever eat pudding again 

Bad bets

So Master and I decided to enter into a seemingly friendly wager....

We would play PS3 Golf and whoever lost had to do something for the other....mine being if he lost he do my chores for two days (INNOCENT RIGHT?!?) His being 20 lashes with the belt for every par I am behind........

Needless to say, NEVER ENTER A BET WITH MASTER!!

I may have overlooked one chore so my punishment was that he wouldn't be using the belt but the dowel rod!

OH. MY. SWEET. ASS CHEEKS

Needless to say he cut the lashings from 20 to 5, but....I received 155 -_- 

155 doesn't seem like a terrible amount, I suppose. But my ass had gotten spoiled lately and Master decided to reappear last night :-)

Lets see what he has up his sleeve tonight...

HOPEFULLY NOT THE DOWEL ROD.....damn thing is going to the wood chipper LOL

Today's goals are simple...

Other than accomplishing my other daily tasks, I am training myself to simply not say the word "NO" to my Master...



Let's just hope he doesn't require any half naked trips to Wal-Mart

Master has been quite sick lately, meaning I havent been able to really take care of his needs and with that I have slipped up quite a bit.

For tonight I have written a list of every task in which I have not accomplished the standards which have been set for me. I suppose this is form of training I have set aside for myself. I left Master the list and a note, as well as placed the whip beside his bedside table. Tonight IF he feels up to it I know Master needs to reconfirm his position in the household.

Lately I feel as though I havent really done my best at being exactly what my Master needs.

Obviously, this isn't as easy as flipping a switch. But I havent been as observant as I know I can be. I have let negativity invade my personality and that is NOT something I want.

So today I removed a few "negative" influences from my life, it's Monday after all the beginning of a new week, time for new change.

I have set a few goals for myself this week and they are the following:

1.) Accomplish all my daily chores plus anything else I think my Master would appreciate me doing, HOWEVER I will not mention a word about doing those things... I can't exactly ask for appreciation, especially when he never does....

2.) Dress more provocatively....so far my wardrobe is going a little further south if you know what I mean, but I need to stop tip toeing on the threshold and jump over the damn thing.... It's time to physically look like the woman my Master needs.

3.) It's time to add a play partner and I mean not just "talk" about it.... I mean go for it! My Master and I have experimented with this before, but havent set anything up recently and damn it, it's time..... A happy Master makes a happy slave.


I love serving my Master it truthfully brings me joy knowing I can please him in specific ways.


Now to finish up my tasks and start ripping up jeans :)

....

What I can only imagine is the flu has hit Master....



It's a gross fest in my home...

Nothing sexy, nothing pretty....


It's a real wet mess I'll tell you......from the sweat of my feverish master....


After changing the sheets several times, I can only hope the end is in the future

Master, I'd like some more please

...

It's been one week...


I think I am dying...

No, I take that bag I think my pussy is nearing the point of say "fuck this" and closing shop...

I guess I shouldn't complain......

YES I SHOULD! I NEED COCK!

End of rant....

Now off to be the best slave EVER :)

Imagination required

So one of my resolutions was to provide Master with an object in which he would perform my weekly training sessions with....

Now this was MY idea (Note: In my head I thought well it would be better if I picked, WRONG...it's almost like picking a poison, however poisoning followed by an orgasm doesn't sound too terrible I bet Snow White would have scarfed that damn Apple down if she had that option)

So how do I decide?!?

It's not like I can bring a pillow and say "Ravage me Daddy!"
He does have some basic requirements... No pillows, Feathers, etc....basically all the items that would make you go "Well that was easy, give me 50 more lashings!"

Well here's the NO-NO-NOs (If I really had that option)

1.) NO WIRE HANGERS!! Fucking Mommy Dearest was right! NO WIRE HANGERS! Stings like a bitch and leaves a not so pleasant marking,  I wouldn't complain too much but when you do a lot of bending for your job (Me being a photographer) when you have a nice little line going across you it tends to pack the post sting...

2.) The damn Leather whip... It's not the worst I suppose, but whenever Master is using it he "accidentally" always hits my poor pussy.....I am beginning to think he does this on purpose -_-

So the question is really what do I WANT to give him to train me with...

Well let's see

The good ol fashioned Belt....only draw back is Master tends to swing just a lighter harder with the belt in hand

The Strainer....sounds easy but plastic coming at your ass a high speed with holes to catch the wind...is rather....OUCH!

AHH...

I suppose I just need to do less thinking and more bending over and THANKING....


And I am the one who suggested this....


Sometimes I hate my internal Slut :)

Us

Whenever I accomplish a task set before me by my Master, I feel a sense of pride and joy. For some I think they see this as demeaning and abusive, I on the other hand see this as a healthy and fulfilling relationship.

Everyone is different, some are meant to lead, some to follow. Some women and men find enjoyment being absolutely independent in everything they do and find it absolutely degrading to be at someones whim.

I am not one of those people.

I am happy. I am absolutely happy in my lifestyle and the relationship I have with my Master. Serving him brings me a sense of enjoyment I have never encountered before, I suppose those who feel enjoyment by being independent also experience this is their own sense.

However, why are we so quick to be judged for the lifestyle we have?!?

My Master is emotionally connected to me on all levels and I cannot imagine having a stronger connection with anyone and on a physical level I am beyond satisfied.

I am not claiming that we are beyond perfect, by no means, there are occasions where I think "Who does this asshole think he is?!" An example of that would be the Taco Bell incident (Note: DO NOT EVER TELL YOUR MASTER YOU ARE TOO COMFORTABLE TO GO TO A FAST FOOD PLACE...... A COLD RAINY NIGHT + BEING TOPLESS = A NOT SO PLEASANT ENCOUNTER AT THE DRIVE THRU :/) 

Obviously this lifestyle is not for everyone but it is for us.

When my Master first presented the idea, I literally jumped on the opportunity. Mainly because I literally would do anything to please him, it's what I enjoy doing, and Secondly because I am not a leader. Nothing about my personality says that. I am a follower and I enjoy being told what to do. 

Obviously I did not take immediately to all my "Rules" I have an argumentative personality, and I can be stubborn. So it was an adjustment to say the least, but after various training sessions, I completely surrendered to my Master.

I guess what I am trying to say is that, my relationship with my Master is amazing and I could not ask for a better one. He is my master, my husband and my best friend...

Now if only we could retire the leather whip I would be a giddy little girl ;)

2014 and Eyeliner

Well it has been quite some time since I last wrote anything, obviously I have been slacking in my writing duties.

But with a New Year brings new goals, of which I fully intend to abide by.

So what do I hope 2014 to bring? Well here is my list of Personal Resolutions. My personal goals revolve around bettering myself for my master, it's amazing how the smallest things can please him.

So here they are:

1.) To orally please my Master each and every day (My ultimate goal here is to be THE BEST, I guess this isn't just about my Master :)

2.) To lose on average 2-3 pounds per week, a goal which is quite reasonable.

3.) To exercise at least one hour per day-Note: P90X IS A BITCH!

4.) Cook at least one meal per day from scratch

5.) Wear my clothing snugger. This has been quite a long process as previously I lived in baggy yoga pants and over-sized shirts. I am now in hip hugging jeans and tight shirts, this at first was a CULTURE SHOCK! I just couldn't believe that it was appropriate or that no one would start making mooing sounds as soon as we went in public. That I guess stems from years of insecurities mixed with self hate, however, I am now rocking my new found figure :)

6.) To devote much more time to my outward appearance. For the past week I have wore makeup and fixed my hair daily, an activity that was previously reserved for Date Nights

7.) Stay spray tanned

8.) Ask my Master for training, this goes much smoother when I smile ;)

Some may think my list is quite vain, and maybe for some it is, however there is only one person I am attempting to please :)